Buddy and I are a good team in many ways. Even when the kids were little and we would be doing the amusement park thing, we balanced each other well...I didn't mind 'spinny' rides and he enjoyed rollercoasters. So, we tag-teamed with kids and rides. The only time I thoroughly enjoyed a rollercoaster was in Florida (MGM Studio park at the time) and they had the 'Rock-'n-Rollercoaster' where you were escorted into a 'limo', it was dark, the whole ride was dark and you listened to Aerosmith's music while being rocketed through a maze of neon signs and stuff. That one was fun, and I had to go since Buddy didn't feel well. I don't like heights AT ALL, so regular rollercoasters hold no appeal, but since this was dark (I couldn't see how high we were!), fast and loud, it was fun ~ went on it several times in a row, as a matter of fact! (Yes, I admit to liking some of Aerosmith's music!)
I'm on a different kind of rollercoaster right now, and don't like it any better. Ups and downs on a daily basis of various sorts, but thankful that the Lord is leading me through it. Can't always see where I'm going, don't like all the effects, etc...but it certainly is quite a ride. I sometimes think that it's good not to always see everything ahead of you. If we saw, if He revealed things too soon, would we be reluctant to trust Him if it was something we wouldn't want? There would be so much more room for questions, negotiations, etc. If I had seen how high we actually were in that rollercoaster, I would have NEVER gotten on and would have missed a really fun time with our kids. Same goes now...if I had seen cancer on the horizon, if I had imagined that this would have been part of my life as it is right now, what would I have done? Don't know that I could have avoided it, but there would certainly have been a great deal of anxiety before I even knew what was up. I think it is wiser to hold onto His hand and trust He knows what He is doing, and learn as I go. By all means, not to go blindly into it, and stumble along. Holding the Savior's hand is the safest place to be and He holds us up. And though I am not always thrilled with the ride, I am so thankful for what I am learning, the friendships that are deepening, the trust that is growing.
Thankful thoughts:
- Warmer day today and sunshine coming through!
- Pink roses and purple flowers
- Surprise visits at just the right time
- Not having to go anywhere today when I just can't
- Funny daughters who make me laugh every day...oh, and Bobby too! (Just not every day...he is 5 hours away after all!)
- Sugar-free jello
- Twin Valley coffee and Joy Pegler! :)
- A husband who serves so well.
Psalm 139:1-6
O LORD, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I’m far away. You see me when I travel and when I rest at home. You know everything I do. You know what I am going to say even before I say it, LORD. You go before me and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to understand!
Have a blessed day today.
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