Day 14...and it has begun.

A few weeks ago, Bobby posted something on my FB wall that went something like this: "Going bald is not so much about losing hair as it is about gaining face. Soon, you will have a whole head of face!" Made me laugh then and still does, even though the process has begun.  Lost a handful this morning in the shower...not in one spot, just cumulative. I don't know how long I will wait to get it buzzed. Tomorrow is my next chemo treatment and the next few days are pretty crummy in terms of energy, so I may have Bob do it tonight. Just get it done and move on. Not looking forward to it, but it is what it is and no doubt, we will laugh about it.  Hope I have a nice shaped head underneath the little bit of hair I do have!

Yesterday was a great day. The best I have felt in 2 weeks, and I am so thankful!  Still tired, but no nausea or headaches. YAY! The morning was fun and family for dinner was a lovely way to spend the evening, followed by a movie. I think most of us fell asleep! One of the highlights of the morning came from Megan's mouth...a little background is necessary. She loved reading Christian romance novels when she was younger, but stopped because she found herself wanting what was in the books!  The guys were perfect, thoughtful, Godly...if you have read Lori Wick, you know what I mean. She seemed to be setting an absolutely impossible standard for the man she married some day!  That being said, Kristen received several of those books yesterday, at her request, and they will be done within a week! Megan received 2 different Bible studies, also at her request. Kristen said, "I can't wait to read mine." Megan responded with, "Yeah, well. My books make me holy. Yours just leave you wanting."!!! We all just cracked up...she even laughed at herself! We had a lot of moments like that...it has to be one of my favorite parts of the morning...

Psalm 139:7-12

⁷ I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence!

⁸ If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave, you are there.

⁹ If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans,

¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me.

¹¹ I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night,

    ¹² but even in darkness I cannot hide from you. To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to you.

 

 

As the reality of my situation continues to sink in, verses like these refocus my thoughts. He is always with me, even at chemo tomorrow. Even when I'm nauseous. Or have a headache...He is LIGHT wherever I am. I pray that I will be a light for Him, no matter how dim at times.

Thankful thoughts:

• Turkey dinners! Yummy...
• Chocolate shot cookies...family favorite
• Still being surprised by my hubby on Christmas morning. He is so very thoughtful.
• My kids and what they gave us and each other (see below)
• Watching Megan and Ben...enjoying him more and more.
• Good movies - and having the time to watch them.
• A cozy fire and a non-windy day...(we can't have a fire on a windy day. Too much downdraft.)
• Cottage cheese - weird, but it tastes good and settles my stomach

Bobby has always loved Christmas and has a very hard time waiting, so we always end up opening his gifts to us first. Yesterday, he was especially antsy! During football season, and the month of October, the guys wore pink tape often in honor of breast cancer awareness month (not just in honor of me, but I'd like to think so!). The personal trainers wore black t-shirts with 'Geneva Football' across the front in bright pink lettering (normally gold for the school) and the pink ribbon. They were not for general sale. Bobby worked it out to buy a dozen, sell what he didn't need to others and get each of us one for Christmas! He was SO pleased with himself and I will get a picture up later!

As always, a little fear about tomorrow, but fully aware that the Lord has this in His hands and that brings great comfort. God bless your day!
Andi