Hey, everyone. So, this is the week of the last treatment! Thursday, I go for my last chemo (as long as my bloodwork is okay, but it has been, so...). That is not the end of the journey, but certainly the end of a big part of it. More importantly, tomorrow is the end/beginning of another journey! Kristen goes to get her license. My youngest, my baby, the last...kind of bittersweet and exciting all at the same time. If you're a parent, you understand that feeling of letting them go but loving every minute of watching them learn and grow at the same time. I'm thankful that I can enjoy tomorrow (we pretty much expect her to pass...she's been doing great.) without chemo, even though it was a little disappointing to have my appointment made Thursday instead of the typical Tuesday. We will celebrate by doing some shopping for clothes for her upcoming trip to China (with Joni and Friends 'Wheels for the World'!!).
The verse that has been rolling around in my mind is the following:
Hebrews 12:1b-3
And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
I'm not gonna lie...I'm getting weary. And am very thankful that this part of the race is almost over. The race spoken about in the verses, I believe, is the whole of the Christian life until we are taken home to heaven. Learning to be more like the Lord, serving Him well, conquering sin in our lives by His grace...so many aspects, all a part of our sanctification. THIS race of mine is a reflection of all those things. They are not mutually exclusive. I don't sit and listen to a sermon and then turn and deal with breast cancer. Our faith and our circumstances need to be interwoven. That's reality. The Lord wants us to keep our eyes on Him and run our race in the midst of our circumstances, using them to trust Him and learn. Anyone in any race gets tired (right? I'm not very athletic, so I defer to those of you in better shape than I!), discouraged, etc. I'm not discouraged, but weary and looking ahead to the next stage - some rest and then radiation. More unknowns and more waiting ahead. Getting pretty good at that part!
Thankful thoughts:
- Sunshine today, after a dreary weekend!
- The beauty of spring flowers
- Unexpected company last night - water on thirsty ground!
- Several lovely visits with dear ones over the weekend
- Pleasing my niece/nephews with 'Aunt Andi' cookies on Saturday
Have a blessed day - keeping our eyes 'fixed' on Jesus...
Andi
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