Ahh...the beginning of another week...

I don't know about you, but days are often just not what I expect or plan them to be. I'm really okay with that...there is always something different that comes along that needs to be done, or changes my schedule, or fills my time. Usually, I just take it in stride. Today, I received a phone call from my oncologist's office, telling me that the blood work I get prior to each treatment came back showing that my white count is too low to have chemo tomorrow...COMPLETELY changes my week, which is fine. Just have to step back and readjust. It is a little disappointing since it means that everything gets bumped back a week, and I have to get my blood retested on Saturday again. However, in light of all that is happening with Buddy's mom, it may be exactly the week that I need to have a break. There is certainly a different pace to my days following a treatment than without one. Buddy will be more free to spend time with his mom. And I get to enjoy another more 'normal' week. But, one without very many hugs...to be safe.  :(  Anyone who knows me well knows that is not easy for me.

I have resigned myself to the fact that I will not be able to be involved with Joni and Friends camp to the extent that I usually am. Though that saddens me, I have no doubt the Lord will provide abundantly for my front porch up at camp...He already has, and I'm not surprised! I'll be there in spirit, no doubt, and hope to visit at least. Time will tell...more waiting! Go figure...the story of my life these days.

When Kristen found out about the delay, she said, "Not surprising...you didn't bounce back this time like you did before." I guess I didn't. Plus, while these next four rounds of chemo are supposed to be easier in some ways, one of the side effects is low blood counts, so I am sure they doubly want to make sure I don't start out compromised.

All that to say, the Lord certainly is not surprised by this, has perfect timing that I have learned to trust, and I just need to wait and do what I can each day to the best of my ability.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.

This is what I have to do every day.

Thankful thoughts:

• Shoe shopping with Kristen after a Plastic Surgeon appt...good medicine, even if we didn't find the right shoes...yet!
• Seeing my daughter in 4 1/2 inch heels!
• Being able to finish some things this week, being given the time
• The AMAZING moonlight that flowed over me in the middle of the night! Sitting in my chair, I awoke to brilliant moonlight...just lovely
• Bailey - our very own 'thera-puppy', willingly offering all the free snuggles needed on a bad day
• Dinner, again, from Padge - shared with a friend of Kristen's tonight while they worked on lines for the play they are in. (I like when things feel normal!)

God bless, everyone. In spite of how things seem sometimes, He does bless us in so many ways, and desires to do so. It just isn't always how we expect...
Andi